So ive been doing this project for a class where I write down all of the questions that come to my mind. Im only a few days in but I already see trends.
Most of my questions are about every day stuff, what to wear, what to eat, do I really need to bring that to class. But a lot of the rest are reflective questions. That have popped up going through old friends Facebook accounts or categorizing the 6000 photos I recently uploaded. Questions like:
What happened to us?
Why haven't we talked in years?
Where are you now?
I wonder if you remember the time when we:
fell asleep in class on each others shoulders,
wore matching denim tuxedos,
had a food fight in the kitchen,
played dress up with your moms clothes,
spent all of our free time building forts and wooden cars,
showed me the hand saw you keep under your bed for "emergencies",
would sing at the top of our lungs over the radio,
went skinny dipping in the pacific in the middle of the day at a public beach,
had a piggyback contest on the hills of San Francisco,
had our first kiss during media class,
painted a mural for class,
would race down the hill to the swing set after lunch,
thought that this stump was the coolest thing,
played with the wooden swords I made us,
tried to make our own legos with hot glue,
made tons of "money" on Business Day,
woke up in your bathtub with tons of people in your house that neither of us knew,
got locked in the bathroom together and the janitor had to take the hinges off the door,
spent an entire class period using Photo Booth on my computer rather than class,
taught "spoons" to the class and played for the entire rest of the day
learned what our teachers middle name was,
tried to get our favorite substitute to sign our year books,
bought a fancy saw to make projects from a book,
almost got lost less than a mile a way from my house,
walked from my house to yours just because,
rode our bikes to Grandpa's house without telling anyone,
went on self esteem walks,
did crazy makeup and photo shoots,
made bad decisions on a field trip to a mormon college.
shotguned energy drinks with our teacher,
were eating apples and were warned about finding half a worm in it,
went wandering around Sac State looking for a party,
danced around the music room instead of homework or studying,
This list is going to get a lot longer, but Ive realized why my work is so nostalgic and spiritual. Because each one of these moments has stuck in me as a moment of love. A moment to be cherished, because it will never be the same. No matter how things turn out in the end if we're lucky we will still have our memories we will still be able to think back on a time where our biggest worry was if thrifty would have my favorite flavor and when the new episode of Star Trek Enterprise was on. We often don't realize the impact simple everyday moment have on us, some of my best work comes from memories of simple things, like ice cream. And even some of the things others think that I would want to forget, Ive come to realize good or bad they happened and as far as I know you can't change the past so why let them consume you why feel guilty why feel regret. Things happen people change but in the moment they seem like good ideas so hold on to that keep the love once felt, the joy in your heart, the tingly feeling on your skin, the wonder that filled your eyes, keep the mist in your hair, and the beauty in the fog. Keep the memories.
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